I've learned many things this week, this first month of long long holiday. It's not about how it broke me down over again, but how I've finally coped with it somehow. Well, nobody said it was easy but neither they said it would be that hard, kan?
Here the story goes... jadi, beberapa hari terakhir ini sepertinya gue sedang mengalami saat-saat yang menyebalkan berkaitan dengan liburan yang kepanjangan. Begini, di saat teman-teman lo masih pada UAS, atau bahkan ada yang lagi ngambil SP, sedangkan kampus lo udah libur dari kapan tau dan tidak menyelenggarakan SP, apa yang lo lakukan untuk mengisi your everyday-is-sunday? I've got part-time working actually, tapi itu baru mulai Juli aka bulan depan... nah, selebihnya kan total pengangguran, maderfader. Mau jalan terus judulnya ngabis-ngabisin duit, seharian di rumah membusuk mati bosen. Oke, oke, mungkin ini sepele, tinggal bilang aja kan: ngapain kek, udah gede ini. Yak... fail.
Tapi the point is, I came into a circumstance that everything's not been there at the same time. Maksudnya, di saat everybody's been busy with their own things and I feel likely being completely all alone, that's what sucks. If home is wherever your heart belongs to, then even a stranger could say that I'm homeless. It's getting worse with my first day of period, and suddenly everyone just looks like a jerk in my eyes. Terdengar childish memang, tapi mau gimana lagi namanya juga orang lagi sensi. Well then, I've got through that night somehow, and sometimes unconditionally tears really bring you closer to be grateful.
Be grateful, karena sebenarnya we can afford to pass everything that has been happened to us, gimana pun keadaannya. Be grateful, karena sebenarnya we just belong to ourselves to stand along so well, ga peduli seberapa banyak orang yang sekarang kita punya. Lihat keterangan waktunya: sekarang. Mereka bisa bilang mereka ada buat kita, tapi siapa yang bisa memastikan kalo besok semuanya akan tetap seperti hari ketika mereka bilang begitu? It's good for us kalo mereka konsisten dengan kata-katanya itu, tapi bukannya everyone dies in the end? I'm not that skeptic because since I've lost many things, I forced myself to start being real. Just simply tell me if I'm going wrong.
Everybody knows but nobody really knows. Mom and Dad got divorced. One to another boyfriend I've ever had now are becoming an ex. Friends come and go, they usually do; some could be back but the rest are gone forever. Sometimes I only want to hide from the world like this instead but by fucking face it is all that I've got; is all that we've got. Know what happens? That's life. We change, we grow up. We're fucked up; we love, we hurt. We're teenagers, we're still learning somehow.
Keep calm and..... snapshot!
Here the story goes... jadi, beberapa hari terakhir ini sepertinya gue sedang mengalami saat-saat yang menyebalkan berkaitan dengan liburan yang kepanjangan. Begini, di saat teman-teman lo masih pada UAS, atau bahkan ada yang lagi ngambil SP, sedangkan kampus lo udah libur dari kapan tau dan tidak menyelenggarakan SP, apa yang lo lakukan untuk mengisi your everyday-is-sunday? I've got part-time working actually, tapi itu baru mulai Juli aka bulan depan... nah, selebihnya kan total pengangguran, maderfader. Mau jalan terus judulnya ngabis-ngabisin duit, seharian di rumah membusuk mati bosen. Oke, oke, mungkin ini sepele, tinggal bilang aja kan: ngapain kek, udah gede ini. Yak... fail.
Tapi the point is, I came into a circumstance that everything's not been there at the same time. Maksudnya, di saat everybody's been busy with their own things and I feel likely being completely all alone, that's what sucks. If home is wherever your heart belongs to, then even a stranger could say that I'm homeless. It's getting worse with my first day of period, and suddenly everyone just looks like a jerk in my eyes. Terdengar childish memang, tapi mau gimana lagi namanya juga orang lagi sensi. Well then, I've got through that night somehow, and sometimes unconditionally tears really bring you closer to be grateful.
Be grateful, karena sebenarnya we can afford to pass everything that has been happened to us, gimana pun keadaannya. Be grateful, karena sebenarnya we just belong to ourselves to stand along so well, ga peduli seberapa banyak orang yang sekarang kita punya. Lihat keterangan waktunya: sekarang. Mereka bisa bilang mereka ada buat kita, tapi siapa yang bisa memastikan kalo besok semuanya akan tetap seperti hari ketika mereka bilang begitu? It's good for us kalo mereka konsisten dengan kata-katanya itu, tapi bukannya everyone dies in the end? I'm not that skeptic because since I've lost many things, I forced myself to start being real. Just simply tell me if I'm going wrong.
Everybody knows but nobody really knows. Mom and Dad got divorced. One to another boyfriend I've ever had now are becoming an ex. Friends come and go, they usually do; some could be back but the rest are gone forever. Sometimes I only want to hide from the world like this instead but by fucking face it is all that I've got; is all that we've got. Know what happens? That's life. We change, we grow up. We're fucked up; we love, we hurt. We're teenagers, we're still learning somehow.
Keep calm and..... snapshot!
You just can't have back the feeling that you've got like the very moment you have. And what we should believe in that truly God gives happiness and sadness both in one package. So don't be worry, just enjoy the ride. Life is worth it.
That thousands cancer patients are died every each day, God has time for us too.
That thousands cancer patients are died every each day, God has time for us too.
