Cry me a river.
I have played this sad song through these years. This high school, this hope of my parents, this cherish from my friends, and this faith to keep a love. And believe it or not, I broke it all.
Have you ever felt just like, you wish you could press time rewind into the days when everything's alright?
When my Dad said that his first daughter gonna wear the same yellow jacket like he did with the green logo, or at least really same with his blue logo. But I have disappointed him, though I'm gonna wear the same jacket too, but with none of the logos he asked me to be.
When my friend said that, "Thank you for everything you did for me, how much you cared for me, and I deeply sorry if I couldn't reply all the things you've done. Sorry if I'm avoiding you, I never meant to.. it's okay to ignore me, I'm a jerk, aren't I? Well maybe I am. For me you are my friend until forever, but maybe I don't deserve having you as my friend, cause you are so kind to me, you get the point?", and I know that I have disappointed her.
When somebody came to me and soothed me with his caring, in the name of love, but then softly leave me with no words left to say. I offer a friendship, but he argued that this won't be the same, if I still had the same old feeling as he tried to forget. So that we have been, in these our own ways, pretend like nothing had happened. And after since I don't know how to be in love again, I guess I have disappointed the others.
And that was so true, I have disappointed myself.
ps. I just need some better seasons to prove that love does exist. I know I'm strong enough to let it go. This is so humane to be feeling sad.
