All I hear is raindrops, falling from the rooftop
Oh tell me why'd you have to go?
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Oh tell me why'd you have to go?
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I'm in the mood troubles.
Thus I don't know how to make it done.
Rainy days recently, and I broke my car wiper.
What am I become?
Today is raining, again. I don't hate rain, sure, but sometimes, no, too often, it scared me a lot. I previously think; rain doesn't mind to be a little more friendly with me. Awful thunder, harsh wind, cold air; the main causes of my asthma attack. One of the reasons why, I prefer not to meet rain. Run into the car, hide under the blanket; whatever I did to avoid it. But, as time goes by; I can't always do those run and hide thingy. I have to face the rain, no matter what it takes.
And now, I'm on the edge. Absurdly, things are turning so grey. I wish I could see an open door, find back the source of happiness. Worse, I don't even know where it is right now. I'm not trying to press rewind; where everything seems all so right. But, sorry for being an only human. Many times I let my tears hitting the floor when it reminds. Somehow, this ain't going that pathetic, trust me. I'm just, having a little 'pasang surut' phase in life, oh, in my teenager life.
Sounds cheesy?
I'm being in not-that-easy choices.
And I have to choose, definitely, as soon as possible. I, and all of the 12th grade students out there, only have about 4 months for SIMAK UI and UAN. The rest 2 months for SMUP, and about a month for SNMPTN. I'm scared, honestly. Not that I'm not sure with all that I've got during these 3 years, but worse; I'm not sure where I will belong into then. I don't know what I have to choose, whether in this, after 2 years, major or chasing my very own dream faculty since so long.
I know, okay, sounds a half, or, completely impossible.
And now I haven't decided yet, while there's no time left to think, yes I know. I just can't guarantee that after I decide I won't take the decision back. I won't expect too much, but soon I still have to decide. I hope it will be the best decision I have ever made.
I'm counting that raindrops, now on.
It's like, yeah, you miss people a lot. It tasted bitter when... okay, I stuck in words.
Let get this simple.
So, you have ever had your best people in the best life you had ever given, but time passed by and everything had changed, when all that you know is you need them back right now. Okay, got it. I ask to myself then; how many times you had lost your bestfriends? Uhm, nope, I'd never. How come, there is no ex-bestfriend, right? Anyhow, it depends on them, not me.
So here it is, mate.
"I don't know what things happened to you that now I'm missing you, a lot. I bite my tongue, hold my fingers, when I look you in the eye and find a fact that we're just getting farther each and every single day. One thing you have to know is; my back will always be here for you, until longer than forever"
Right, things are getting colder, forsaken.
Starts over again, I finally find myself, in some unfair things. After those torn photographs which I tried for tapping back, it's simply fixed somehow. But forgive me, I'm just saving myself from another hurt. I'm not lying to say a lotta love, then may I say it would be my greatest thanks? You're just too true to be good; just swap it, with bunch of sorry.
Oh well, I'm done.
All these things practically drive me crazy. But after thinking in hours by skipped school day, drove around the wet; it's free to say that I'm feeling, a bit, better right on. I have to choose, whatever it brings me for some risks. Everything, because life is all about choices.
So I hope, we always get the best rainbow after those raindrops :-}
Smooches,
N
Thus I don't know how to make it done.
Rainy days recently, and I broke my car wiper.
What am I become?
Today is raining, again. I don't hate rain, sure, but sometimes, no, too often, it scared me a lot. I previously think; rain doesn't mind to be a little more friendly with me. Awful thunder, harsh wind, cold air; the main causes of my asthma attack. One of the reasons why, I prefer not to meet rain. Run into the car, hide under the blanket; whatever I did to avoid it. But, as time goes by; I can't always do those run and hide thingy. I have to face the rain, no matter what it takes.
And now, I'm on the edge. Absurdly, things are turning so grey. I wish I could see an open door, find back the source of happiness. Worse, I don't even know where it is right now. I'm not trying to press rewind; where everything seems all so right. But, sorry for being an only human. Many times I let my tears hitting the floor when it reminds. Somehow, this ain't going that pathetic, trust me. I'm just, having a little 'pasang surut' phase in life, oh, in my teenager life.
Sounds cheesy?
I'm being in not-that-easy choices.
And I have to choose, definitely, as soon as possible. I, and all of the 12th grade students out there, only have about 4 months for SIMAK UI and UAN. The rest 2 months for SMUP, and about a month for SNMPTN. I'm scared, honestly. Not that I'm not sure with all that I've got during these 3 years, but worse; I'm not sure where I will belong into then. I don't know what I have to choose, whether in this, after 2 years, major or chasing my very own dream faculty since so long.
I know, okay, sounds a half, or, completely impossible.
And now I haven't decided yet, while there's no time left to think, yes I know. I just can't guarantee that after I decide I won't take the decision back. I won't expect too much, but soon I still have to decide. I hope it will be the best decision I have ever made.
I'm counting that raindrops, now on.
It's like, yeah, you miss people a lot. It tasted bitter when... okay, I stuck in words.
Let get this simple.
So, you have ever had your best people in the best life you had ever given, but time passed by and everything had changed, when all that you know is you need them back right now. Okay, got it. I ask to myself then; how many times you had lost your bestfriends? Uhm, nope, I'd never. How come, there is no ex-bestfriend, right? Anyhow, it depends on them, not me.
So here it is, mate.
"I don't know what things happened to you that now I'm missing you, a lot. I bite my tongue, hold my fingers, when I look you in the eye and find a fact that we're just getting farther each and every single day. One thing you have to know is; my back will always be here for you, until longer than forever"
Right, things are getting colder, forsaken.
Starts over again, I finally find myself, in some unfair things. After those torn photographs which I tried for tapping back, it's simply fixed somehow. But forgive me, I'm just saving myself from another hurt. I'm not lying to say a lotta love, then may I say it would be my greatest thanks? You're just too true to be good; just swap it, with bunch of sorry.
Oh well, I'm done.
All these things practically drive me crazy. But after thinking in hours by skipped school day, drove around the wet; it's free to say that I'm feeling, a bit, better right on. I have to choose, whatever it brings me for some risks. Everything, because life is all about choices.
So I hope, we always get the best rainbow after those raindrops :-}
Smooches,
N
