Q: Hey, how's life?
A: Been good, busier than ever. :-)
Hmm... sometimes it's a lot easier to tell that you're good rather than explaining what makes you feel not, even so you are really not good. Well, I just need to make a little note here. I'm not good, not even a little, not even close.
- I ain't having thru halfway of my midterm exam. But it feels already like a really, really, long weeks to go until it'll be done. This is the hardest I've been going on. I could barely study at night. Instead, I left those hand-outs, notes, books, and laptop scattered in a mess upon my bed.
- I got a duty as a basketball team's manager at my faculty. It's fun tho, they're nice, I instantly love the squad. Yet lately, I can't be focus doing my responsibility because of when I stood still on the yard, my mind wandered somewhere I didn't notice. And there somebody passed the ball, I had a little heart attack.
- Next week I'm about to have my dancing class exam. I even haven't set my own choreography until this moment on. My teacher asked me last night, where have I been? Where did I lost my balance? My moves sucks and I don't know why.
- My Dad's been hospitalized for some couple days and now he's home already. So glad he's okay tho he hasn't been back to his office yet. I've been worried so much, yet he didn't know somehow, because if I lose him I really have nothing to do about with my life.
- My best friends, I hope they're good. I really miss them a lot. Over past these recently times I haven't talked to them like how I used to. I told you from the upfront it's a lot easier to tell that you're good rather than explaining what makes you feel not, even so you are really not good, eh? Lucky me my very best friend is not going anywhere but a heartbeat away from mine.
- Have you ever felt like holding something from second you're about to lose it? I have. I don't know else who to trust. They say everything happens for a reason, but I'm dying here to wait for the reason to come along. Feeling fades, people change, but life doesn't stop for anybody.
- I sleep much.
- I cry much.
But if happiness doesn't last, sadness won't stay long too, right? Just because you can't see the air you stop breathing, just because you can't see what it means you stop believing. So that's what happens.
