Just accidentally listened to this song on my way home, and I cried right there.
Alone. Aloud.
A heart breaking moment so far, never been that hard, ever since I've been no longer having both in a house, Mom and Dad. I know it's been years since they decided to divorce, but until now whenever I see a happiness a family should contain, I inevitably feel sad. It's not that I'm not being grateful for what I have now, it's just, there might be something that I miss, over there in the past, when everything forced me to grow up whereas the time is yet to come.
I see myself in years, the way I've become a less dependent girl as if it's the only choice I was be able to choose. I've been through the toughest time; having that broken family portrait, a smell that a boy left me with a deep disappointment that I could barely move on around those four years, and how those seasons changed just like people who once claimed themselves as best friends. It all happened at once, to a girl who wore a long grey skirt and pair of tied shoes. But there I go, as I prove that it is time who finally heals everything. And I thank God abundantly for He always have my back every time it cracks.
Fifteen past one by now, I'm sitting in my room with some overlapping stuffs in my mind. I'm 20 by this year, looking for what I've done and what I will do. Seeing for what I've become and what I will be. The journey, I guess, is still long enough to pass. You know, it's the past undeniably made you who you are. You can't change them either erase them. You just have to accept them and the rest will follow. You please people while what they think about you is none of your business, so what's the use of that?
I told you, maybe for me, it's hard to trust anyone anymore. Because every time I trust someone new, they end up reminding me why I shouldn't trust anyone at all. But that one thing for sure, nothing in life is ever be sure, not even a thing. Why don't you go hug your Mom and Dad for anytime you can still meet them, appreciate the person that comes with love who opens up your heart again, and sing your soul along the ride with your best friends? Wouldn't it be, like beyond, priceless? Just enjoy every breath while it lasts, no one ever really knew what they've got till it's gone.
Live life, love life. Good night and sleep tight. :)
Alone. Aloud.
A heart breaking moment so far, never been that hard, ever since I've been no longer having both in a house, Mom and Dad. I know it's been years since they decided to divorce, but until now whenever I see a happiness a family should contain, I inevitably feel sad. It's not that I'm not being grateful for what I have now, it's just, there might be something that I miss, over there in the past, when everything forced me to grow up whereas the time is yet to come.
I see myself in years, the way I've become a less dependent girl as if it's the only choice I was be able to choose. I've been through the toughest time; having that broken family portrait, a smell that a boy left me with a deep disappointment that I could barely move on around those four years, and how those seasons changed just like people who once claimed themselves as best friends. It all happened at once, to a girl who wore a long grey skirt and pair of tied shoes. But there I go, as I prove that it is time who finally heals everything. And I thank God abundantly for He always have my back every time it cracks.
Fifteen past one by now, I'm sitting in my room with some overlapping stuffs in my mind. I'm 20 by this year, looking for what I've done and what I will do. Seeing for what I've become and what I will be. The journey, I guess, is still long enough to pass. You know, it's the past undeniably made you who you are. You can't change them either erase them. You just have to accept them and the rest will follow. You please people while what they think about you is none of your business, so what's the use of that?
I told you, maybe for me, it's hard to trust anyone anymore. Because every time I trust someone new, they end up reminding me why I shouldn't trust anyone at all. But that one thing for sure, nothing in life is ever be sure, not even a thing. Why don't you go hug your Mom and Dad for anytime you can still meet them, appreciate the person that comes with love who opens up your heart again, and sing your soul along the ride with your best friends? Wouldn't it be, like beyond, priceless? Just enjoy every breath while it lasts, no one ever really knew what they've got till it's gone.
Live life, love life. Good night and sleep tight. :)
