the moment you write this, you must be overwhelmed by such a chaotic situation that leads you into a long period of confusion. But there's also one thing you should know from the upfront; you only got accidentally attached with someone whom once you've thought the bond you both have will last at least longer than yesterday.
You mean, who wouldn't miss that bond? That comfortable feeling, where you could talk for hours about everything and not have a problem with the silence in the middle. All the ridiculous stuffs you did, stupid or not, everything was so preciously fun. Endless nights, real talks, the 'remember whens' you remember it all. And how sad can define when you've finally become the last person who knows what is up on that person's world whereas back then you used to always be the first. It's funny what life does, how it could give you things and take it away so soon.
It's not that you haven't tried. You have been watching that person in only one mile distance, building up the wall that not high enough so anytime that person needs you, that person still can run back and can't barely climb in a blink of an eye. But then you realise at the moment you're still going nowhere, that person keeps walking away instead finding things nobody like you can't understand. So the only thing left you have to do is to draw the line of determination from desperation. Know why, it's either wasting time helping someone who has no intention to help them themselves. And unfortunately, that one person is one of them above.
Now what makes you afraid the most is not losing one of 'the close people' in your life, but by too much worrying whether that person is only doing fine with that person's life because in reverse, you're not doing fine without that person. You can say you're right, you're seemed all okay, but how many tear drops upon your pillow anytime you miss that person? And by the time you write this, you just can't imagine how tomorrow goes on when you finally meet that person again because you have promised yourself not to care as much as you did unless you supposed to fall in the same hole twice. You really can't get it to your head that you grow distant from people and that good things come to an end sooner or later. But along the way you'll learn one thing about life; it goes on, you just gotta pick yourself up and learn to keep up. So here you put the full stop.
You mean, who wouldn't miss that bond? That comfortable feeling, where you could talk for hours about everything and not have a problem with the silence in the middle. All the ridiculous stuffs you did, stupid or not, everything was so preciously fun. Endless nights, real talks, the 'remember whens' you remember it all. And how sad can define when you've finally become the last person who knows what is up on that person's world whereas back then you used to always be the first. It's funny what life does, how it could give you things and take it away so soon.
It's not that you haven't tried. You have been watching that person in only one mile distance, building up the wall that not high enough so anytime that person needs you, that person still can run back and can't barely climb in a blink of an eye. But then you realise at the moment you're still going nowhere, that person keeps walking away instead finding things nobody like you can't understand. So the only thing left you have to do is to draw the line of determination from desperation. Know why, it's either wasting time helping someone who has no intention to help them themselves. And unfortunately, that one person is one of them above.
Now what makes you afraid the most is not losing one of 'the close people' in your life, but by too much worrying whether that person is only doing fine with that person's life because in reverse, you're not doing fine without that person. You can say you're right, you're seemed all okay, but how many tear drops upon your pillow anytime you miss that person? And by the time you write this, you just can't imagine how tomorrow goes on when you finally meet that person again because you have promised yourself not to care as much as you did unless you supposed to fall in the same hole twice. You really can't get it to your head that you grow distant from people and that good things come to an end sooner or later. But along the way you'll learn one thing about life; it goes on, you just gotta pick yourself up and learn to keep up. So here you put the full stop.
ps: if 'that person'—I put no she or he refers to— will accidentally read this, which I'm sure they might, just so you know I have no idea no more to make everything better so we can talk in some proper words like we used to—or maybe I really am never good enough for everybody I love.
