even today.
This is what stuck in my mind, "Do we have to be more wicked than those who are wicked to us?" And then I cried. This is what I'm afraid so bad. When you treat someone well but they take you for granted. No, I do have it, sincerity. But what sad is... to be left and forgotten.
I asked that question to one of my best-boy-friends, and he said, "Yes, to conquest fear you have to become fear. We are not 'ksatria baja hitam' who could always forgive all the bitches."
And my Mom woke me up by bringing a slice of cake. I saw my sister, and also my Dad, kissed me on forehead. My best friends were singing to me, others were sending their prayers and wishes to me. But what shocked me is, I had a package. From someone who called himself a pilot in the future. It contains a frame filled with my photos on some events, and I don't know where he got those from. There are also my stuffs, which I ever gave to him. I read the card, it's written, "I give it all back to you, so you can give it to others. The one who loves you like I love you. The one who waits you like I wait you." And I have nothing left to say.
I was overwhelmed in silence. I checked my phone then, I got a message from my old best friends. They both, whom ever have known as a couple, and because of me it was broken. I thought they wouldn't have remembered, but I was completely wrong. Am I that too bad to deserve such good people like that? It's just... so sad to realize that karma does exist; you took someone for granted, and the others take you for granted. It's right when you say, sometimes the people whom we hurt the most are the ones we love the most. We'd always thought that they are here forever but then they are gone, and we are lost.
But still, there is one thing I really really have to be grateful... Thank Allah, You give me a very very blast life until now when I am still breathing. You are The Only Best Thing I have ever had.
Yeah, everything sucks,
even on my 18th birthday.
This is what stuck in my mind, "Do we have to be more wicked than those who are wicked to us?" And then I cried. This is what I'm afraid so bad. When you treat someone well but they take you for granted. No, I do have it, sincerity. But what sad is... to be left and forgotten.
I asked that question to one of my best-boy-friends, and he said, "Yes, to conquest fear you have to become fear. We are not 'ksatria baja hitam' who could always forgive all the bitches."
And my Mom woke me up by bringing a slice of cake. I saw my sister, and also my Dad, kissed me on forehead. My best friends were singing to me, others were sending their prayers and wishes to me. But what shocked me is, I had a package. From someone who called himself a pilot in the future. It contains a frame filled with my photos on some events, and I don't know where he got those from. There are also my stuffs, which I ever gave to him. I read the card, it's written, "I give it all back to you, so you can give it to others. The one who loves you like I love you. The one who waits you like I wait you." And I have nothing left to say.
I was overwhelmed in silence. I checked my phone then, I got a message from my old best friends. They both, whom ever have known as a couple, and because of me it was broken. I thought they wouldn't have remembered, but I was completely wrong. Am I that too bad to deserve such good people like that? It's just... so sad to realize that karma does exist; you took someone for granted, and the others take you for granted. It's right when you say, sometimes the people whom we hurt the most are the ones we love the most. We'd always thought that they are here forever but then they are gone, and we are lost.
But still, there is one thing I really really have to be grateful... Thank Allah, You give me a very very blast life until now when I am still breathing. You are The Only Best Thing I have ever had.
Yeah, everything sucks,
even on my 18th birthday.
