There you stand still, and I'm left here behind.
I know, we can't always get what we want, like you've always said.
But... may we just can want what we have?
I'm stuck in reverse, this halfway.
And I'm about... to give up?
This is what I fear the most, dear.
It's like, you don't know when again the sky will be blue.
Like when once, I ever had you.
Now is rain on me, the sun shines on you.
I can't feel this much, believe me... I feel the sun shines on me too,
though the rain is getting heavier,
though the thunder scares me to death,
I still feel the sun shines on me too.
I still feel like I'm right beside you.
They are, not me.
You have found them.
You have found what you've been looking for.
I'm really really... proud of you.
It's okay then, but sometimes...
I'm really really... missing you.
I don't know what happened there makes us like this.
I don't know why I don't want to know.
But I'm dying, to know that you don't want to know too.
Is this me being selfish?
I'm sad.
I'm messed.
I'm disappointed.
And now I'm overwhelmed with this pain.
The worse thing are better left unspoken.
The tears I dropped should be stopped right now.
Right now...
when all that I know is:
you are still my best friend... from the past 3 years ago,
until longer than forever.
I hope someday I will be waking up.
