Two days before SIMAK UI.
And what I'm feeling is getting like, I don't know what will I become. The options between life choices, are getting harder than ever. HAH
Kind of recalling, this post will be started from the day when I was begun as a Senior High School student. I put this school as the second option in that form; as I was expecting to be, that I would finally spend those three years wearing the gray skirt uniform here. It was fine; since I've met many of my old friends here, and also found many great new people. Though in other side, I've felt really sorry to my parents because however; I was in my second choice here, as I couldn't reach the first choice as they was expected me to be.
The second year was, starting with no better convenience. I had some troubles (okay, I was fooling around since it came from a teenager's love affair), which are affecting many ways in my school days. It was terrible, get your heart was broken, without knowing when will it simply mended. I was like, living in somebody else's life that long time, repeat, that long time. The biggest deal came when I finally was majored in Social, once again as the second choice, without having an alternative-plan-where-will-be-I-going-into-after-school in Social major. It was sad, you know, to see how I broke my own dream that I've built before, right in front of my eyes. But there I was; two years full of fun as a social student, with some crazy people whom I would never have known them; one thing I should have regretted, if I was not there. And yeah, that's life... so unpredictable. Though in other side once again, I've felt really sorry to my parents because however; I was in my second choice here, as I couldn't reach the first choice as they was expected me to be.
And now, the time when I will write the rest is getting closer. So much closer than before that I have been feeling so scared if the result will not what I have meant to be. You know, I have passed the hardest point here, as I have determined what would I choose for my next step after school. To be honest, it's hard to imagine when will I become in my own major. By being real, me, as a social student, should be choosen as a social worker in social study. So that I put my first choice in Faculty of Psychology, Universitas Indonesia; as I'm so longing to be, for helping others in healing section in human's life, the one and only faculty of social study where I can be what I want to be. I, actually, put some option below... but I don't know what I have to do with that if they won't accept me on my first option there. And here is the point. When I put my second choice in Faculty of Dentistry, Universitas Padjadjaran. This is exactly what I want the most. It means a dream, contains with approval of some people I have to prove, which I fight so hard to be a dream come true, as I pay what my parents have given for me as a return. I won't let these words:
...will be a repeated sentence that I have to rewrite!
And yeah, the future will always truly be in your hand, but sometimes... what God has planned for you is not in your first choice. That's why I put my first option as my second choice.
So that, people, school ended is not the really end. It's just started to begin.
We're just started to begin.
Keep pray go fight,
Kind of recalling, this post will be started from the day when I was begun as a Senior High School student. I put this school as the second option in that form; as I was expecting to be, that I would finally spend those three years wearing the gray skirt uniform here. It was fine; since I've met many of my old friends here, and also found many great new people. Though in other side, I've felt really sorry to my parents because however; I was in my second choice here, as I couldn't reach the first choice as they was expected me to be.
The second year was, starting with no better convenience. I had some troubles (okay, I was fooling around since it came from a teenager's love affair), which are affecting many ways in my school days. It was terrible, get your heart was broken, without knowing when will it simply mended. I was like, living in somebody else's life that long time, repeat, that long time. The biggest deal came when I finally was majored in Social, once again as the second choice, without having an alternative-plan-where-will-be-I-going-into-after-school in Social major. It was sad, you know, to see how I broke my own dream that I've built before, right in front of my eyes. But there I was; two years full of fun as a social student, with some crazy people whom I would never have known them; one thing I should have regretted, if I was not there. And yeah, that's life... so unpredictable. Though in other side once again, I've felt really sorry to my parents because however; I was in my second choice here, as I couldn't reach the first choice as they was expected me to be.
And now, the time when I will write the rest is getting closer. So much closer than before that I have been feeling so scared if the result will not what I have meant to be. You know, I have passed the hardest point here, as I have determined what would I choose for my next step after school. To be honest, it's hard to imagine when will I become in my own major. By being real, me, as a social student, should be choosen as a social worker in social study. So that I put my first choice in Faculty of Psychology, Universitas Indonesia; as I'm so longing to be, for helping others in healing section in human's life, the one and only faculty of social study where I can be what I want to be. I, actually, put some option below... but I don't know what I have to do with that if they won't accept me on my first option there. And here is the point. When I put my second choice in Faculty of Dentistry, Universitas Padjadjaran. This is exactly what I want the most. It means a dream, contains with approval of some people I have to prove, which I fight so hard to be a dream come true, as I pay what my parents have given for me as a return. I won't let these words:
Though in other side, I've felt really sorry to my parents because however; I was in my second choice here, as I couldn't reach the first choice as they was expected me to be,
...will be a repeated sentence that I have to rewrite!
And yeah, the future will always truly be in your hand, but sometimes... what God has planned for you is not in your first choice. That's why I put my first option as my second choice.
So that, people, school ended is not the really end. It's just started to begin.
We're just started to begin.
Keep pray go fight,
HIGH SCHOOL NEVER ENDS!
