He didn't answer my call, nor reply my message. I thought first, he fell asleep or maybe left his phone, but by hours he didn't call me back as I told him to. I called him, again, and yes... he answered. And a fragile sound came out from there, as I stared wondering what just happened with him. An accident, suddenly took my tears of worries.
I knew he wasn't okay, but he calmed me not to afraid of his condition. He's got a medical treatment then, and I can't imagine how awful that he felt of his head, which bumped harshly by the accident. I just... wanna be with him that time, holding his hands and telling him that everything's alright. He trusted in me, even when the doctor said he needs a surgery.
How does it feel by the way,
I heard not such a sweet thing from him, when he asked me if the time he has to leave, has come. I can't answer it by words. I cried. But once again he held my tears and whispered softly,
"I look up above the heaven and tell God... please do not take me away. I still have to stay and watch this girl on the earth"
I said nothing but cried. Cried because of the words he said. And I smiled. Smiled to thank God for sent him as mine. A warmhearted guy, who lets his girl gone through the happiness by telling another-I'm-okay words, without knowing that he was really not fine.
I haven't felt better today, though my friends keep cheering me up and go along praying for him. I heard his voice is weakened by the day, but all he could do is keep making me laugh to pretend that it hurts him the most. Oh God, I miss his smile.
And yeah,
I lost his voice, again, tonight.
Please somebody tell me this is only an April Mop joke.
ps: We still have to accomplish SIMAK UI and UAS next week, SMUP for me two weeks later, and your USM ITB after that, don't we? I know you will be alright :')
