Thursday

He does exist only in my dream.


So... I have met a boy, a couple months ago. That evening, me and my friend, Anita, were driving slow around the road just like a hell crazy. Suddenly, she screamed right at my ear like; "Look! Who's driving in front of your car, let's chase him!" Okay, that's her idea and I couldn't help at all. We're lost that time; but the day after I repeated that foolishness myself, without Anita there.

I came to that same road but I didn't see his car again. I determined to leave, until my bumper hit a huge hole upon a house. Got me, it was his house. I was speechless and freezing. He helped me, anyhow, and we've got a little silly conversation. Later he told me that he has been knowing before; that me and Anita were following his car. What a shame, I was so embarrassed. He asked my bbm pin, then, we had every blast night until the dawn came and left us stay awake all night. I've never imagined before, it's like, I've known him since so long because that far our relationship is getting closer, closer than ever.

Until this point.

I've never guessed it's been that fast. Days ago, he shot me (not with a gun, we named it). Between one, and some other reasons; I said, "Yes, let me be your forever best girl friend, may I?" That same time, I screamed inside such like I don't know whether this is right or wrong. He smiled, still, with had no words to say.

We need the right person on the right time, don't we?
When the right person came on the wrong time, or the wrong person came on the right time, same as nothing, should it be?

He asked me whether he's not the right person or this time wouldn't be the right one. I stared at him, without knowing what I would tell. He looked me in the eyes by saying; "We'll meet again years later; I'll be an architect, you'll be a dentist. Until the time is yet to come, I'll wait for you."

It's a very hard choice to choose.

I'm in my room now, holding both social science studies.
I'm waiting around my phone, even if I could tell you;

"...we were so close; and in my heart... I did really like you. I guess I just miss you and what we used to be, but you were never mine. I heart you, I heart everyone who hearts me in their heart.. what the best is being so close and watching you here walk beside."



*ping me if you read this, R