I'm messed up.
I shouldn't be here instead.
I have known it, from it was firstly begun, but my bad; I do nothing.
It was.. terrible. I have been blowing up all the task papers, destroying all the test sheets; so that I broke most of the scores.
What's worst?
It has been happening for 2 years.
I guessed, as time goes by, I can be fixed here somehow. But, day after day wouldn't show that things got better. It's sick when you only got your spare time with your friends; just because they are way too far from you. While people who's been around you, is having too much differences point of view than you thought you are. Maybe God have determined that everyone should be the way they are, but truly, it's hard for me.
I'm sick. I'm not fine.
Hmm, I'm not going to turn this way too pathetic, of course, so that no matter what; life keeps on turning. I'm not sure whether it will be healed soon or not, but I'm sure it will. For many tears I've wasted, He saved me a ton of smiles afterward :')
Nobody wants pain, everybody wants happiness.
But you can't have any rainbow without a little rain.
I need a hug. A big hug.
